Get knocked down ….

One step forward, three steps back. Everyday, people everywhere fight and battle just to get out of bed. Getting dressed, or taking a shower is just things that fall to the side. They don’t eat right, much less healthy. Taking care of themselves is not a priority. They see the coming day as just another bunch of wake up hours to be endured. They watch movies, and read books (blogs too) that show people who defy the odds and find happiness and success.

I know this because I fight this everyday. In the last few months it has only gotten worse. For me it is something I think I have fought for some time now, how long I do not even want to consider writing down. It would only serve to anger and push me down further.

Every night, I am plagued with thoughts of the things I didn’t get done. Question why I didn’t get this or that done. I get up and think I can get it all done then. Course, I am only getting worthless “busy” work done. Not like you can call people at 1 am and discuss business. Find myself reading for hours about things in this world I have no control over, but feel the intense desire to comment on them. Guess we always feel better when we can focus on others and their problems then facing and dealing with our own. I am not only a member of that club, I am the president of it.

I now find myself in a hole I don’t know how anyone could climb out of. Know some will say, suck it up. Get up, get dressed and go find any job you can. No matter how poorly it pays. Yea, that helps! I have heard this so many times, and with what little strength I have left I have fought it. Not sure why, but I have. Could be that I am so stubborn I can’t help but hurt myself. For some reason I have held out “hope” that I was better then that. That there was something about me that could attain greater. Experience is proving to me, that there isn’t anything special, that I have been wrong.

The negative impact it has on me has been rather extensive. But the hurt and pain I have caused others is the worse part. Met a very special person many years ago and put her through more then anyone should ever have to deal with. She endured not only my failures and everything comes with that, but even more. A son who I have never met, but I am touched by daily. Then there is the one person, above all others who should never be injured or hurt by me, but it seems everyone that comes in close proximity of me gets pulled down. To each of you, I really am sorry!

Now what? Where do I go, what should I do?

What do you need?

The other day, someone asked me what I needed right now. Be honest it was out of the blue for this person to ask me that, but I told him simply, “a car.” Trust me, trying to do real estate and Design-29 is a real pain from a bus. Granted, we have one car but its availability is pretty limited now days.

Got me thinking, that I have to do something about this and do it now. So, I am looking for anyone out there that might be interested in making a few bucks renting me a car they don’t use much. Looking for something like a Ford Explorer, Nissan Murano, along those lines.

If you do, please email me and let me know the details, looking forward to talking to you.

Someone needs to tell this one to sit down and shut up too!

Some people should just shut up. What is this woman thinking? Can she do anymore harm to her own reputation?

California lawmaker wants to blur Google Earth – CNN.com

I think the horse has left the barn!

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Woman embezzled millions, bought 400 shoes while company laid off workers

How pathetic can someone get? And we wonder why the economy is so bad?

Police: Woman embezzled millions, bought 400 shoes while company laid off workers |
KOMO News
- Seattle, Washington
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2 new Puget orca calves seen; 1 adult male missing

I so love good news stories, and only thing better is the local orca sightings. This one has both. What do you think? One thing I am working on this year is getting out more and getting pictures of all the great things around where I live. Orcas are one of the most amazing animals and I intend to get some photos of them.

What do you think? Any suggestions for photos from the Pacific Northwest? Leave your suggestions in the comment area!

2 new Puget orca calves seen; 1 adult male missing: ”

FRIDAY HARBOR, Wash. — The Center for Whale Research at Friday Harbor reports two additions to Puget Sound orca pods and one big subtraction.

Researcher Ken Balcomb says one new calf has been born in J pod and one in L pod.

Balcomb also says a 31-year-old male knows as L-57 and called Faith has not been seen, although two females he generally travels with have been sighted several times since October in U.S. and Canadian waters.

The Kitsap Sun reports the loss of an active reproductive male would be especially bad news for the Puget Sound killer whale population. Seven presumably died last year dropping the endangered populati”

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