What am I?

I so hate feelings, and emotions too. Thought I had learned how to control them, and I am really learning that is just not true. If anything, I am learning how badly I am at controlling them. Trust me, it totally sucks! Last couple weeks have been a bit of a challenge for me, and it is driving me crazy to say the least.

One thing I have been fighting with is this damn perfectionist thing, or otherwise called procrastination. They do go hand in hand together. Constantly I fight with this and I don’t know why. Last couple months I have been non-stop working on this new company. It finally “launched” two days ago, and it should have launched like five weeks ago. Just kept working on this and that, and these things haven’t even made it onto the site yet. Because I think they aren’t ready, and of course I am completely wrong about all of that. It has only caused me to make more mistakes and screw ups. Forced me to be upset with others and blah, blah, blah.

My new goal is just to get things done today! Something is better then nothing, and it isn’t like I can’t go back and fix anything I screw up anyway. Man, it is so frustrating!