Time to get serious

Well, I guess the time has come for this blog to wake the hell up. This blog I think is going to be more focused on the changes in my life. Hence the name I guess. Mostly it is going to be about my health and all the things I am having to change to get to a better place.

Not sure I want to run my working life in this blog. Since I am sure they have very different audiences. Hum, weird I would think that way, but thinking weird is pretty normal for me. One thing I am learning about myself is I take everything myself included way too seriously. Not to mention I am always trying to keep things to myself for some stupid reason. It one of the major things I am trying to change about myself. Like when people ask me to meet them or do something I am always holding off till the last minute before saying I will or will not do it. Why in the world I do this makes me crazy. I know I am different then most and I am sure the whole topic of being normal or abnormal I will address at another time. For now though, it is really true that I am different then pretty much everyone I know. Wish I knew why, but not so much now days. Granted, having ADHD is a big part of it as well as that whole creative side of me. My desire to be normal is less and less now days. For as long as I can remember I wanted and wished to be normal. Now days, I just don’t care as much about it. Maybe I have finally accepted the fact that it will never happen as well as I am not that sold on all the crap that is normal. Granted, it seems easier to me to be normal then what I am, but equally just letting it all go and not worrying about it so much has made my life much much easier. Guess it was all that worrying. For what ever reason, I am moving forward and looking for my happiness and protecting it.

As for all these changes, well lets just say I have never really liked myself too much and my actions have been proof of that. Guess liking myself is another one of those things I have to deal with. And one step in that journey has to be taking better care of myself. My health has been an issue for a few years now and I can’t keep not doing something about it.